I am too inspired by Snow Patrol. I'm not sure if it's because I went to their concert or because I am mesmerized by Gary Lightbody's voice. So I'm sure I will look back and read my stupid blogs about love and blame Snow Patrol. So to continue my blog of love (haha that sounds kind of funny):
All I ever wanted was to share what I've been given,
To be forever loved in your eyes,
My hand in yours and a dream based only on reality.
I could give you my life and strive to make everyday like the last,
It doesn't matter what happened in the past,
because you are who you are with that past
and it's perfect.
You and your heart are all I want.
Give me that and I will give you my all.
I pray and pray that one day life will guide you back to me.
I ask for a sign whether to leave you behind or wait,
It seems impossible for the first,
but it seems that I may have to fight my fear and leave you behind.
Ok, hopefully that will be my last. I highly doubt it, but it's kind of making me sick to see all these lovey dovey stuff.

Through many years, I've been focusing on the pitch and the outcome of whether or not I actually hit the ball to make it on base. I've realized that it's more about watching the movements the pitcher makes to throw each particular pitch. Will she curve her wrist, smack her glove to scare me, or throw a ball? If I can see what she does as she throws each pitch, I can be better be prepared for that brief moment when the ball reaches the batter's box. The outcome is now the result of my observances and my reaction to each of the pitcher's movement. I'm in control and I choose how I want the game to end.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
The road finally stopped with the twists and turns. Turns out, I might be Latin Works material. Billions of resumes and cover letters sent out, 4 interviews, and 1 anticipated phone call. It's actually working out for me. If I can work and work and only focus on work, I can get where I want to be. May not sound like much to someone, but I'm where I want to be. Sometimes it doesn't feel deserved, but it all happens for a reason. I wish everyone else luck in the cruel capitalistic world. Hell, I wish myself luck. Nothing is set in stone. Not tomorrow, not the job we hold today, or the one we hold in our hearts. It's a life of mystery.
Sunday, November 11, 2012
If I could, I would erase every memory of you.
I am not waving a white flag or ignoring what happened,
but I've lost too much time because of you.
This one moment, I over think it
and suddenly I'm free.
No matter how many memories you've given me,
I won't hold onto them anymore.
There's light at the end of the tunnel.
I am stronger and know that I am more.
I knew from the beginning what to expect.
It was my ignorance.
Goodbye and move on.
All of a sudden I am my own.
I am me, I see me without you.
I am not waving a white flag or ignoring what happened,
but I've lost too much time because of you.
This one moment, I over think it
and suddenly I'm free.
No matter how many memories you've given me,
I won't hold onto them anymore.
There's light at the end of the tunnel.
I am stronger and know that I am more.
I knew from the beginning what to expect.
It was my ignorance.
Goodbye and move on.
All of a sudden I am my own.
I am me, I see me without you.
I believed in something that was not.
I gave everything I had.
I loved and cared.
It's all part of the past.
But my heart is being held captive.
I try to make it right.
I thought it wouldn't take me long.
It's all wrong.
That was the last time.
The last reason to make things right.
The first kiss and the first time is gone.
The connection broken.
I had everything I wanted.
I see you face in the shadows that I can't ignore.
You speak and make it better.
But never is it better.
Never do I get what I want.
It's all gone.
Everything I wanted is out of sight.
I can pray and wish, but the final scene happened.
I can only remember the first kiss and the first time.
I lost everything.
The final words and the final sentence, done.
I can't let this go on forever.
I don't know what to do.
The memories haunt me.
I need a savior from them.
Where do I start again when my heart has no ending.
Please allow me to let you go.
I gave everything I had.
I loved and cared.
It's all part of the past.
But my heart is being held captive.
I try to make it right.
I thought it wouldn't take me long.
It's all wrong.
That was the last time.
The last reason to make things right.
The first kiss and the first time is gone.
The connection broken.
I had everything I wanted.
I see you face in the shadows that I can't ignore.
You speak and make it better.
But never is it better.
Never do I get what I want.
It's all gone.
Everything I wanted is out of sight.
I can pray and wish, but the final scene happened.
I can only remember the first kiss and the first time.
I lost everything.
The final words and the final sentence, done.
I can't let this go on forever.
I don't know what to do.
The memories haunt me.
I need a savior from them.
Where do I start again when my heart has no ending.
Please allow me to let you go.
One song after another the past makes itself present.
Replays after replays I wish and pray you were still here.
Thinking about how it used to be.
Trying to feel what I used to feel.
My heart beating against yours.
Our voices soft in the dark.
It's all I want.
Just you.
Just be mine.
Open your eyes and look into mine.
Know that during this time you're all I want.
It's all I want.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Just say yes.
Replays after replays I wish and pray you were still here.
Thinking about how it used to be.
Trying to feel what I used to feel.
My heart beating against yours.
Our voices soft in the dark.
It's all I want.
Just you.
Just be mine.
Open your eyes and look into mine.
Know that during this time you're all I want.
It's all I want.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Just say yes.
Friday, November 9, 2012
Snow Patrol
I'm not one to use such vulgarity, but this concert was fucking brilliant. It was better than I anticipated and the greatest part was when Gary Lightbody waived at me. I don't think I'll ever forget this amazing day. I just wish he would've played my favorite song, You Could be Happy. I would have just died if he played it.
These guys have so much talent and I think I may be in love haha. Very charming person Gary is. Thank you for a truly wonderful concert. I will definitely attend another if I ever get the chance to.
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